Im sure everyone has those days, or weeks, that they just feel off. Since the last half marathon, I have not had a good strong run. I havent felt like running or been motivated to get out there and push myself. When I do run I cut them short and struggle to even finish the abridged version. I dont get it.
Im hoping this doesnt last very long. It is really a horrible feeling and just thinking about it makes me feel even worse about it. I started running so I could lose some weight and fit into my mom's wedding dress. The dress fits...and now I have to maintain for another 5 months. Maybe I am a little bitter about the fact that it is going to take constant work, for the rest of my life, in order to stay at the level I am at...or was at a few weeks ago.
Or maybe its because I had to travel for work the week after the HM, then it was the week of Thanksgiving, and now Matthew is traveling for work for two full weeks. Maybe that is what is causing the funk. Running alone sure does suck. Matt and I almost never actually talk during the run, but it is very comforting to be with him. Running has brought us closer to each other, mainly because we have set out to do something we thought was impossible just a few months ago. We have had to help each other and encourage each other to get through each and every run. We have done it all together...and now Im on my own for the next two weeks.
My goal for the next few days is to get feeling better, get my motivation back, and have at least one good long run. Is that really too much to ask for? I just want to feel like a competent runner, and not like the completely incompetent runner that I have been feeling like the past 2 weeks.
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